THINSPIRE

Guess what?

I’m back. And this time, I’m doing it. I’ve made excuses (Midterms. Exhaustion. Homework. Practice. No time. No money.) and now I’m over them. I WANT control over my life. I WANT to do it this time. I’m willing to put my everything into it. For real. I’m tired of excuses, I’m tired of looking in the mirror and thinking: holy shit, how do I even have friends? I want to make a change, and that’s the only thing that counts.

I’ve decided to start a food journal. I was opposed to it at first, but now that I’ve crashed and burned I’m thinking it’s the only way out. I literally do NOT have time to count calories—but I’ve found a way around that. If I keep a diary I’ll see approximately how much I’m eating each day and I’ll be able to compare.

So honestly, this is it. I just sort of realized that I’m completely in control. I can’t make dinner, or tell my parents what to buy, or buy groceries myself—but I can control what I choose to eat and how much of it to eat and that’s what’s important. That’s what will make the difference.

So here you go. I lost about 5 followers over the past two weeks. I’m sorry they didn’t feel I was posting often enough, and it makes me sort of mad that they’d abandom me: but I want to thank them anyways. They made me come back. They made me realize that one day it’s 5 followers, the next day you’ve gained 10 pounds and the thigh-gap is basically nonexitant. So thanks. I’m officially back on board.

:) Wish me luck lovelies!